tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1533980468313397629.post4883885385964854712..comments2023-04-19T09:58:45.752-05:00Comments on PaulaWallaism: blah, blah, blah...PaullaWallahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02350289603591627695noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1533980468313397629.post-48755977091159188652009-02-13T10:14:00.000-06:002009-02-13T10:14:00.000-06:00friends right away - I like it more because I meet...friends right away - I like it more because I meet lots of people that have stuff in common - (small children) I try really hard to get involved and that seems to help me the most and meet people to stay friends with. I will keep you in my prayers - I know how hard it is and especially when your husband isn't around much to help with that void.Valhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03650036668164539890noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1533980468313397629.post-84803648079525908392009-02-13T02:52:00.000-06:002009-02-13T02:52:00.000-06:00Some days, I can say the same thing--only it's not...Some days, I can say the same thing--only it's not my location that I hate. Even though Colorado often feels small, I love this place and feel like it's an extension of myself. But, sometimes, the skin I'm in feels too small and dopey. The place I reside--this place of indecision and confusion and...that familiar alone--it makes me want to claw my eyes out and reach out for something more.<BR/><BR/>I've been really, really uncomfortable for a long while now...inside this skin. I know there's so much more for me to do--and I have an idea of how to do it, and what it is I'm supposed to do--but everything is so far away. And, for once, I'd just like a straight answer from someone I care about more than I should. I'd just like him to love me for who I am instead of who he wanted me to be. But that won't happen anytime soon.<BR/><BR/>That's sort of the point of hating something. The more uncomfortable it makes you and the more you throw your heart against it, the stronger you get--and the more you need it. I have no idea why you needed Florida, but I think eventually it will come to you. These things always have a way of making themselves apparent when we aren't grasping for an answer.Almahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15758197829147250282noreply@blogger.com