Friday, February 27, 2009

Looking For the Brighter Side (entry one)

If I can wake up every day (well, here lately anyhow) feeling like I'd rather cry than eat breakfast part of me wonders if maybe I shouldn't just cry. Then again, I tried that for two or three days solid and it didn't really get me anywhere. Sure, I pull off the puffy eyes and congested voice better than just about anyone but did I feel any better? No.

So today when I woke up feeling exactly the same, I did what I've already been doing for months - tried to figure out how to make myself like this place... tried to figure out what I'm doing that isn't working... tried to fix whatever it is that's broken.

Then I remembered something.

When what you're doing isn't working, you should do something different. A wise teacher once told me, "Practice doesn't make perfect, perfect practice makes perfect." So if you're doing something wrong don't keep doing it hoping to get it right... do it right if you want to get it right.

So, I'm trying something new today. I'm telling you I'm in a funk and that's the first step in finding the brighter side. What's next? I'll let you know when I get there.


1 comment:

Jenn-Neal said...

You don't know me. I don't know you. But I've been you. Well, sort of, I haven't moved 3,000 miles away to try and be with my child, but I have moved away to try and make my own life. I lift you up in prayer and I ask you to just lift yourself up. Get out. Do something. Anything. Go for a walk. Go to the beach and spend time writing in your journal. Go to the local coffee shop and strike up a conversation with a stranger. It's hard to meet friends, but just know that you're not the only one looking for a friend. Join a book club. You like to read and so do a lot of people. This will give you a goal to accomplish. You have to read the book and formulate ideas in order to discuss them in your group. Voila! You've met people...and they have at least one similar interest. Your future best friend may be in that group. What do you have to lose?
I realize that I sound like a man by trying to "fix" your problem, but I'm a woman who has been you and sometimes still is...but I try every day to create my own happiness. No one else can make you happy, but you.